Drat, It's Me!

yo meme is so nasty she made speed stick slow down.

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 09:33:53 GMT

stuff taken from e1njuwannakno
comment and i will:

2) associate you with a song/movie.
3) tell a random fact about you.
4) tell my first memory of you.
5) associate you with an animal/fruit.
6) ask something I've always wanted to know about you.

and

7) IN RETURN YOU GOTTA DO THIS (or not)

yo meme is so dirty that you can't tell where the dirt stops and she begins.

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 05:51:18 GMT

tagged by the glorious captawb

1) Bold what is true about you.
2) Italicize what you wish was true about you.
3) Add one true thing about you to the end of the list.
4) Tag five LJ friends.

* I miss somebody right now.
* I don't watch much TV these days.
* I own lots of books.
* I wear glasses or contact lenses.
* I love to play video games.
* I've tried marijuana.
* I've watched porn movies.
* I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
* I believe honesty is usually always the best policy.
* I curse sometimes. As opposed to constantly.
* I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
* I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
* I have broken someone's bones.
* I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
* I hate the rain.
* I'm paranoid at times.
* I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
* I need/want money right now. (hey, who doesn't? >_>)
* I love sushi.
* I talk really, really fast.
* I have fresh breath in the morning.
* I have long hair.
* I have lost money in Las Vegas.
* I have at least one sibling.
* I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
* I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
* I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
* I like the way that I look.
* I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
* I am usually pessimistic.
* I have a lot of mood swings.
* I think prostitution should be legalized.
* I slept with a roommate.
* I have a hidden talent.
* I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
* I have a lot of friends.
* I have pecked someone of the same sex.
* I enjoy talking on the phone. But only with certain people.
* I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
* I love to shop and/or window shop.
* I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
* I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
* I have a cell phone.
* I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
* I've rejected someone before.
* I currently like/love someone.
* I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
* I want to have children in the future.
* I have changed a diaper before.
* I've called the cops on a friend before.
* I'm not allergic to anything.
* I have a lot to learn.
* I am shy around the opposite sex.
* I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
* I have at least 5 away messages saved.
* I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
* I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
* I own the "South Park" movie.
* I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal or DeviantART.
* I enjoy some country music. (some as in Johnny Cash, and sometimes Hank Williams Sr.)
* I would die for my best friends.
* I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
* I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
* Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
* I have dated a close friend's ex.
* I am happy at this moment.
* I'm obsessed with guys.
* Democrat.
* Republican.
* I am punk rockish.
* I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
* I study for tests most of the time.
* I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
* I can work on a car.
* I love my job(s).
* I am comfortable with who I am right now.
* I have more than just my ears pierced.
* I walk barefoot wherever I can.
* I have jumped off a bridge.
* I love sea turtles.
* I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
* I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
* I am proficient on a musical instrument.
* I hate office jobs.
* I went to college out of state.
* I am adopted.
* I am a pyro(maniac).
* I have thrown up from crying too much.
* I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
* I fall for the worst people. (but not anymore! booyah! xD)
* I adore bright colors.
* I usually like covers better than originals.
* I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
* I can pick up things with my toes.
* I can't whistle.
* I have ridden/owned a horse.
* I still have every journal I've ever written in.
* I talk in my sleep. Sometimes.
* I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
* I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
* I wear a toe ring.
* I have a tattoo.
* I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
* I am a caffeine junkie.
* I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
* If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
* I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
* I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
* I'm an artist.
* I am ambidextrous.
* I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.
* If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
* I have terrible teeth.
* I hate my toes.
* I did this Meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.
* I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
* I have lived in either three different states or countries.
* I am extremely flexible.
* I love hugs more than kisses.
* I want to own my own business.
* I smoke.
* I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
* Nobody has ever said I'm normal. (i'm quirky and damn proud of it ;D)
* Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.
* I am proficient in the use of many types firearms and combat weapons.
* I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
* I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.
* I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
* I have played strip poker with someone else before.
* I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
* I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
* I can't stand being alone.
* I have at least one obsession at any given time.
* I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
* I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
* I'm a judgmental asshole.
* I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
* I have traveled on more than one continent.
* I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.
* I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
* I am a Libertarian.
* I can speak more than one language.
* I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
* I would rather read than watch TV.
* I like reading fact more than fiction.
* I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
* I have no piercings.
* I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
* I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
* I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night. (not Christmas, though.)
* I've been married and am now divorced.
* There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.
* I like most animals better than most people.
* I own a collection of retro games consoles.
* The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.
* I have hit someone with a dead fish. (fishslapping! w00t! xD)
* I have written/read erotic stories.
* I am compulsively honest.
* I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
* I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
* I have gone from wishing I was a boy to revelling in being a girl to feeling like a boy again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.
* I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
* I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
* I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
* I dislike milk.
* I obsessively wash my hands.
* I always carry something significant around with me.
* Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.
* I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
* Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.
* I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.
* I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
* I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.
* Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.
* I am a virgin.
* I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
* I do not 'get' most comedy acts.
* I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.
* I don't like to chew gum.
* I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.
* I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.
* Had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
* I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.
* I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.
* I love to sing.
* I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.
* I have a custom-built computer.
* I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
* I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.
* I've gone skinny-dipping.
* I've performed in three plays, all of them Shakespeare.
* I enjoy burritos.
* I'm Irish and lovin' it.
* I have a thing for redheads.
* I am a twin!
* Most times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.
* Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
* I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.
* I sleep more than 12 hours a day.
* I often fantasize about being in fights or physically hurting people, but not anyone in particular.
* I love instant noodles.
* I was a spoiled brat as a child.
* I'm over 25 years old and still enjoy all the things I did when I was 10.
* Sometimes I feel like I'm not of this world at all.
* I'm obsessed with cartoons and will never change.
* I have learned how to forgive.
* I used to wish I had a tail.
* I don't sunburn

I can't think of anyone else who should be tagged. >_> Must I end the chain here? Who wants to be tagged? :D

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 02:02:12 GMT

I had an extremely fun month, starting with mouse_chan’s arrival in Malaysia and careening onward to glory! mouse_chan has blossomed into an even more sparklingly gorgeous woman since the last time I saw her last year, although she still bites and doesn’t make any sense as usual. xD While she was here we painted the town hot pink, drank cocktails and munched on Iskandar’s homebaked evil cookies, which, by the way, was so amazingly evil that we saw stars, lost our way and were practically sprawled on the polished floors of IKEA.

MOUSEY: Oh My God, I can’t stand up anymore. Those cookies were just too, too good for me! I’ve cookiegarsmed!
ME: *agog* Not in public, you vixen!
BF: I can’t find the exit. Is that the exit?
ME: No, honey. That’s just a hole on the wall.
BF: So emergency exit, then?
ME: Just let me sit down! I’ve cookiegarsmed!

A week afterwards, I invited mouse_chan to Iskandar’s birthday party, but she politely refused. I guess the cookies brought her one too many vulgar memories. xD The party, however, is an entirely different story. I have never, ever been to a party where the host literally forces bottles of whiskey down the throats of his guests for five whole freaking seconds!

ISKANDAR: Experienced your five seconds in heaven yet?
ME: What for? My name’s already down for limbo.
ISKANDAR: I’ll take that as a no. Minions! Hold her down! Another crushed soul is OURS!
MINIONS: Wheee! *grabs jaw and forces it open*
ME: *gurgles*
ISKANDAR: One Mississipi! Two Mississipi! Three Mississipi! MUAHAHA.
ME: Uf onh uuphul lurghf cunshshnn misshshsh! (But one evil laugh counts as one Mississipi!)
ISKANDAR: I’m sorry, dear, I can’t understand you. Now where was I? Oh yes – four Mississipi! Five Mississipi! MUAHAHA. Thank you for your cooperation, please watch your step there.

As much as I love it, I’m never good with alcohol, so I’ll have to personally thank my lovely new friends Renita and Noreen for helping me throughout the night. >_> And Ernest, too, on the long ride home. Thanks for being the only sober person in the car, mate. Or sort of.

BF: Who threw up in front of the club?
ME: Me! I made it all by myself!
BF: Lovely pattern, dear. Mine was much worse.
ERNEST: You’re all so screwed.
ALAN: You mean you’re not? Let it all out. *massages Ernest on the back of his neck*
ERNEST: Ooooh~
ALAN: What do you feel?
ERNEST: A strange, tingling feeling… as if something’s pushing up the base of my throat…
ALAN: Good. You’re going to throw up.
ME: That makes the four of us. Yay!
ERNEST: …I hate you all. *pulls over and throws up outside*

On a sadder note, I’m preparing to leave my humble apartment to move in with my parents because of disturbing rumours of my independent life. I swore to mum the raunchy orgies were next door but she wouldn’t believe me! Ah... no longer will there be exciting house parties and hanging out at food stalls at three in the morning. The contents of this livejournal will be so much tamer. It’ll be more of ‘My six-year-old sister threw her playdoh at me yesterday and she owned me at UNO!’. Unless I come up with devious plans to sleep over at a friend’s place. >D Kekeke.

But the most remarkable thing is coming up this June 30th! After two years stranded here, I‘ll finally step foot upon familiar shores! Indonesia, my homeland! With the glorious food! Everything on the menu, that’s all I’m asking for! e1njuwannakno says he’ll contact me while he’s there. Keep your word, e1n. Or I shall throw my comb at you! Mhehe.

Will anybody else be in Indo for the holidays? ranier? bullykilla? :D

Sat, 20 May 2006 05:48:10 GMT

ME: i truly apologise for not being in touch for quite a while. no offense, people, but i was disastrously sick!
EVERYONE: none taken, dear. who are you by the way?
ME: ...

i'm fit as a fiddle now, but for two weeks i was convinced the apocalypse was edging closer, or at least had some sort of a grudge against me. i had allergies, itches, fevers, whooping coughs all rolled into one and 'WTFISWRONGWITHME' became some sort of a daily prayer. i didn't go to the doctor the entire time, because i hate dealing with medicine besides panadol and the campus clinic really does you no good. no good at all. i mean, a friend of mine actually faked fatigue to get a pack of valium so he could get high in class, and actually got away with it. >_>

GAH.

mary-jane strikes again.

Fri, 21 Apr 2006 02:38:37 GMT

Man Calls Police To Report Missing Marijuana

what a complete moron. >_>

yo meme's so ugly she made an onion cry.

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 10:35:17 GMT

like i have anything better to do. *rolls eyes*

STACK OF ASSIGNMENTS: ehm. cough cough. sneeze.
ME: bless you.
STACK OF ASSIGNMENTS: hello? to be submitted on friday? *does cartwheels*
ME: ooooh! very good! have a kibble. actually, no. better i put you on fire.
STACK OF ASSIGNMENTS: *goes on fire* a little help here?
ME: laters!
STACK OF ASSIGNMENTS: *all aflame* remember your lecturer's last...
LECTURER: my assignments are so hot, they actually WENT ON FIRE.

... now for some MEME TIME!

Your walk is:
All About the Disco Arms

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see how this walk perfectly suits my lj name? shacka lacka swish! XD

although i actually like this better:

Your walk is:
The Result of a Ballet Accident

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

1. Your full name – mita something something.
2. Age - twenteen.
3. Height - 165ish cm.
4. Natural hair colour - black.
5. Eye colour – dark brown.
6. Number of siblings - 3 bros, 1 sis. happy family! :D
7. Glasses/contacts – glasses.
8. Piercings - used to have six, then got bored of it.
9. Tattoos - oooh, i wish. >_> i'd go for temps anytime, though.
10. Braces – used to.
11. XD - wtf?

FAVOURITE
12. Colour – red.
13. Band – oasis.
14. Song – currently loving D&B songs. days go by by high contrast.
15. Stuffed animal - my pandaman! XD
16. Video game – the sims, prolly.
17.TV show - simpsons.
18. Movie – at the moment? green street hooligans.
19. Book – harry potter by jk rowling.
20. Food - spicy indonesian food.
21. Game on a cell phone - my cell is old skool. it only has the first version of snake.
22. CD cover – jet. pop artish b/w. sooo kewl. :3
23. Flower - flour.
24. Scent - male.
25. Animal - snake.
26. Comic book - ONE PIECE.
27. Cereal – don't eat 'em.
28. Website – apforums.net
29. Cartoon - ONE PIECE

DO YOU
30. Play an instrument? yeah.
31. Watch TV more than 60 hours a week? nay!
32. Like to sing? like a bird.
33. Have a job? does 'deprived student' count?
34. Have a cell phone? aye.
35. Like to play sports? only basketball.
36. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yep.
37. Have a crush on someone? melovelybf!
38. Live somewhere NOT in the united states? yes. way over here in malaysia.
39. Have more than 5 TVs in your house? nay. doesn't even have one. students are so poor. that is why you working people should donate us! :D
40. Have any special talents/skills? i can touch the tip of my nose with my tongue. :D
41.Excercise daily? nope.
42. Like school? loved it.
43. sing the alphabet backwards? i try to, but always fail the moment i reach 'm'.
44. Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes? ballerina-style~
45. Speak any other languages? yep.
46. Go a day without food? not on purpose, that's be just torture. >.> except when i'm fasting religiously.
47. Stay up for more than 24 hours? been there, done that.
48. Read music, not just tabs? a little.
49. Roll your tongue? complicatedly.
50. Eat a whole pizza? – what can i say, i have a healthy appetite. XD

HAVE YOU EVER
51. Snuck out of the house? don’t need to.
52. Cried to get out of trouble? hehe.
53. Gotten lost in your city? every weekend, just for the hell of it.
54. Seen a shooting star? yes. and made a wish! :D
55. Been to any other countries besides the United States? yes. but then again, i've never been to the states, so..
56. Had a serious surgery? thankfully never.
57. Stolen something important to someone else? nope.
58. Solved a rubiks cube? no.
59. Gone out in public in your pajamas? aye.
60. Cried over a girl? a friend, yes.
61. Cried over a boy? nah.
62. Kissed a random stranger? yep.
63. Hugged a random stranger? yep.
64. Been in a fist fight? nooo.
65. Been arrested? nope.
66. Done drugs? just weed, really. >_>
67. Had alcohol? yep.
68. Laughed and had milk come out of your nose? nope.
69. Pushed all the buttons on an elevator? all the time.
70. Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc? ah, that sucks.
71. Swore at your parents? yes.
72. Been to warped tour? noooo. i wish there were warped tours in my part of the world. T_T
73. Kicked a guy where it hurts? ack, no.
74. Been in love? not really sure.
75. Been close to love? probably.
76. Been to a casino? no
77. Ran over an animal and killed it? well, a bug went splat on our window while my brother was driving..
78. Broken a bone? no.
79. Gotten stitches? nope.
80. Had a waterballoon fight in winter? winter doesn't exist here, missy.
81. Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour? haha, not yet. but that's a grand idea for fun.
82. Made homemade muffins? nope. would love to, someday. like, when i learn to use the oven.
83. Bitten someone? hehe.
84. Been to disneyland/disneyworld? nope.
85. More than 5 times? not even once. >_>
86. Been to Niagra Falls? i'd love to. but sadly, no.
87. Burped in someones face? ew, no.
88. Gotten the chicken pox? yep.

WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
89. Brushed your teeth – just now.
90. Went to the bathroom – uh, just now.
91. Saw A Movie In Theaters - last week. ice age 2. XD <3
92. Read a book – last week. read GoF for the umpteenth time. can't get bored of it.
93. Had a snow day – seven years ago, in the highest peak of the victorian mountains.
94. Had a party - two weeks ago.
95. Had a slumber party - in high school.
96. Made fun of someone – everyday. weird people are bound to pass by in my campus plaza.
97. Tripped in front of someone – two days ago, i gracefully catapulted to the ground. *blames the rain and my stupid slippery sandals*
98. Went to the grocery store - today.
99. Got sick - uh, a long time ago.
100. Cursed – yesterday. all my troubles seem so far away~ *eh?*

PICK ONE
101. Fruit/vegetables - fruit.
102. Black/white - white.
103. Lights on/lights off – dim lights.
104. TV/movie - movie.
105. Car/truck - car.
106. Body spray/lotion - lotion.
107. Cash/check - cash.
108. Pillows/blankets – bolster!! huge cilindrical pillows you can wrestle with. only in asia, baby. XD
109. Headache/stomach ache - headache
110. Paint/charcoal - paint.
111. Chinese food/mexican food - mexican.
112. Summer/winter – summer.
113. Snow/rain - snow.
114. Fog/mist - mist.
115. Rock/rap - rock.
116. Meat/vegetarian - vegetarian.
117. Boy/girl – any.
118. Chocolate/vanilla - chocolate.
119. Sprinkles/icing -sprinkles.
120. Cake/pie - pie.
121. French toast/french fries - toast.
122. Strawberries/blueberries - blueberries.
123. Ocean/swimming pool – ocean.
124. Hugs/kisses - both. most preferably at the same time. XD
125. Cookies/muffins - cookies. i'm a cookie monster! :3
126. p33n/bewbz - the hell?
127. Wallet/pocket - wallet.
128. Window/door - window.
129. Emo/goth - emo.
130. Pink/purple - purple.
131. Cat/dog - dog.
132. Long sleeve/short sleeve - long.
133. Pants/shorts - pants.
134. Winter break/spring break - springbreak.
135. Spring/autumn - autumn.
136. Clouds/clear sky - clear.
137. Moon/mars - moon.

FRIENDSHIP
138. How many friends do you have? seven best mates, a group of close friends, and tons other mutual acquaintences.
139. What are their names? </a></font></strong></a>mouse_chan, quinny, nadya p., nadya a., karjo, mya, izel.
140. Do you have a best friend? yes. the world would be dreadfully dreary without them.
141. Have you ever liked one of your friends? haha.
142. Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends? my mates are all girls, but close friends are mostly guys.
143. Have you ever lost a friend? tragically.
144. Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend? yesss! :D
145. Whats an inside joke between you and a friend? let's keep an inside joke inside, why don't we.
146. Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend? not really.
147. Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend? i don’t know. i try to listen and be there for them 24/7, though.
148. Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you? went abroad to see mee~ XD *loves mousey and quinny*
149. Do you miss any of your old friends? all my mates. T_T
150. What friend have you known the longest? -- apart from my mates? wulan & wardha.
151. Do you regret anything youve done to a friend? i don't think so.
152. If so, what is it? meh.
153. How often do you spend time with your friends? as much as possible.
154. Do any of your friends drive? yes. </a></font></strong></a>mouse_chan owns Phillip Filth, whom she never washes. XD
155. Has a friend of yours ever died? nooooo. please no. i'd seriously go crazy. ;_;
156. Whats the dumbest thing you've done with a friend? stayed silent when i should've really said something.
157. What do you think your friends think of you? dunno. ask them.
158. Have you ever been in love? i don't know.
159. If you have, with who? poof.
160. Are you single? no.
161. Are you in a relationship? er. yes.
162. If so, for how long? since april 16.
163. Do you believe there is someone for everyone? yes. i'm a hopeless romantic who has never been in love. sue me.
164. What is your idea of the best date? a mix of fun, spontaneousity, laughter and alcohol-inflicted tipsiness.
165. What was your first kiss like? forgettable.
166. How old were you when you got your first kiss? 8.
167. Do you think love is a load of shit? hell no!
168. Whats the best experiance you've ever had with the opposite sex? why should i tell you.
169. Have you ever been dumped? no.
170. Have you ever dumped someone? yes.
171. Whats the most sexual thing youve done with the opposite sex? oh, let people guess~

WORD ASSOCIATION
172. Slippers - bunny.
173. Hat - mad hatter.
174. Hard – wood.
175. Free – bies. freebies! XD
176. Space – sailor moon. >_>
177. Taste - me mum's cooking.
178. Good charlotte – punk turned pop. ew.
179. Red - LOVE!
180. Deep - blue sea.
181. Heart - LOVE!
182. Cord - guitar.
183. Cheese - richard cheese. XD
184. Rain - sleep.
185. Work – my dad.
186. Pedal – go-kart driving.
187. Head - desk. *headdesks* see? *headdesks again* see? see? XD
188. Bed - baby.
189. Fluff - candy.
190. Hardcore – porn? XD
191. Race - the way my bf drives. fun. <3
192. Knife - stabbing the steak with it while humming the psycho theme song.
193. Jump - you jump, i jump! XD
194. I.... am - a walrus!
195. want - attention, please.
196. need – time.
197. crave – indonesian food. mmmm.
198. love - pretty sparkly things. like, life.
199. hate – butterflies.
200. did – something.
201. feel - guilt.
202. miss - my honey bunny monkey.
203. am annoyed by - mosquitoes.
204. would rather – go to the dark side now.
205. am tired of - listening to aimless rants.
206. will - be the queen of the galaxy!

SILLY STUFF
207. What is your favourite genre of music? alternative.
208. What time is it now? 6.23 PM
209. What day is it? thursday bloody thursday.
210. Whens the last time you called someone? last night.
211. How much money do you have right now? like i'm gonna tell ya :p
212. Are you hungry? not really.
213. Whatcha doin? writin'.
214. Do you like parades? yessss.
215. Do you like the moon? yes. lovely.
216. What are you going to do when youre done with this? go out.
217. Isn’t cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over? er. no.
218. If you could have any magical power what would it be? wingardium leviosa!
219. Have you ever had a picnic? yes.
220. Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young? -- erh, what?
221. What about sock em boppers? -- is that like rocking my socks?
222. Are you wearing any socks right now? nope.

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
223. funny? yes.
224. pretty? nah.
225. sarcastic? nope.
226. lazy? like an ass.
227. hyper? sometimes.
228. friendly? yes.
229. evil? absolutely! go to the dark side, my pretties, we have better chefs~ :D
230. smart? yes, smart. S-M-R-T!
231. strong? i guess so.
232. talented? -- like, being able to burst into extravagant songs while waiting in line at the cashier?
233. dorky? totally. XD

FOR OR AGAINST:
234. suicide - against.
235. love - for.
236. drunk drivers – against.
237. airplanes - for.
238. war - against.
239. canada - for.
240. united states - for.
241. rock music -for.
242. gay marriage -for.
243. school - for.
244. surveys - for.
245. parents - for.
246. cars - for.
247. killing – depends.
248. britney spears - don't bloody care.
249. coffee - for.
250. pants - for. the only people against pants must be pervs. >_>

WOULD YOU EVER:
251. Sky dive? aye!
252. Play strip poker? probably.
253. Run away? maybe.
254. Curse at a teacher? nooo.
255. Not take a shower for a week? NAY.
256. Ask someone out? don't think so.
257. Lie to someone to make them think better of you? nope.
258. Visit a foreign country for more than a month? oh yes, please.
259. Go scuba diving? yeessss. i want to see nemooo~
260. Write a book? it's in my future plans :D
261. Become a rockstar? oooh, yes!
262. Have casual sex? ack, no way.

LAST QUESTIONS:
263. What shampoo do you use? herbal essenses.
264. Whens the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex? meh.
265. What kind of computer do you have? laptop.
266. What grade are you in? college.
267. Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies? ooh yes, uber fun. XD
268. Or just make out? haha.
269. How many posters do you have in your room? a few.
270. How many cds do you have? not much. all in my laptop.
271. What time is it now? 6:32pm

on april 16...

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 15:52:57 GMT

... i turned twentyteen! a truckload of thanks to everyone who made my birthday worthwhile! :D :D :D

i was right when i thought my friends were planning something for my birthday. they gave me a BOYFRIEND. XDD

sadly he did not wear a birthday suit nor did he jump out of a giant cake, but hey. still sweet as hell. <3

and he gave me a tiny luffy figurine! although me thinks the gift was a total bribe, because he knows there is no way in hell i could resist luffy. :P

also, i feel the need to especially thank some Very Special People for their Beauteous Efforts in making my birthday Ultimately Interesting:

- darling mouse_chan! for calling me at midnight (malaysian time) despite the obvious time difference between our two countries. *verytighthug*

- dearest quinny, who called me a day late but called internationally anyway - with tons of juicy goss XD *muah*

- my baby, for Explicitly Obvious Reasons. <3 <3 <3 <3

- nadya, my housemate, for being The Brain behind The Plan.

- the guys over at E-69, who screamed HAPPY BIRTHDAY and made off-key (read: disturbing!) noises over the phone. dorks! XD

- my best mates (except zera, who is obviously busy enough to not remember *pfthtbtbt*)

- the wonderful people who congratulated me in AP forum and friendster.

- captawb. go the lapdance! XD

- chang (bullykilla), for advising me to screw everyone in sight.

wise words, bro. wise words. XD

- ranier, for making cake and bondage!luffy. XDDD

kyaaa~~ so cute!

- e1njuwannakno, for being astoundingly normal.

then giving me the surprise i wanted.

and doodling the strawhat crew holding my erh, plushie. >_>

... hey! you still owe me my sanji, chopper and robin + plushie doodles. i shall wait! XD

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 07:02:38 GMT

rumbleballoverdosed!chopper shocked the bejesus out of me. O_O

but you can't deny it made him mighty, mighty supercool. i have my sparkly eyes upon you, chopper.

*hails oda*

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 05:40:29 GMT

Your Birthdate: April 16

You're incredibly introverted and introspective. You live inside your head.
You spend a lot of alone time meditating and thinking.
People see you as withdrawn, and at times they are right.
You are caring and deep, but it may be difficult for you to show this side of yourself.

Your strength: Your original approach to thinking

Your weakness: You tend to shy away from others

Your power color: Pale blue

Your power symbol: Wavy line

Your power month: July

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

O_O ack, i object! because most of these just ain't true. for instance, i dislike pale blue. i much prefer red. i don't 'tend to shy away from others', i back away but only to total strangers who don't give out friendly vibes. i'd choose zigzags over wavy lines any day and dude, although i like to spend time meditating on my own, i find it much better when i'm surrounded with my mates. i'm definitely NOT an introvert and living inside my head would be far too crowded, with all the little people and stuff, so frankly i'd rather not. >_> psh, blogthings. who makes them anyway? they think they know, but they know nothing at all. XD

so anyway, i'll be turning 20 this sunday! i'll no longer have the word 'teen' in my age, which is somewhat shocking, since i still consider myself an exuberantly playful fourteen year old child at heart. i wish there were such an age as 'twentyteen years old'. T_T and although those with depressing worldviews may think that birthdays only mean another year closer to death, on the contrary, i think it's a sure sign that we are alive and kicking. it's a day where we can shout out to the world, yelling at the top of our lungs (as ODA would have it) "We Are Still Here." and my pals seem to be planning something for my birthday. at least that's what they hinted. i love surprises but i just hope it doesn't involve bondage or dipping me with flour, oil, tomato sauce and then pushing me into the swimming pool. yes, they actually do that to people, they're so mature.

in other news, my week has been fun. in a girlish and giggly sort of way. ehm. XD

i went on a date last monday! which was uber fun. :D i surprisingly did not let my stupidity show (which i always tend to do) and oh, the things we did were awesome. we unearthed a hidden indonesian restaurant and gobbled down almost everything there with our bursting indonesian pride. we went to a lounge and drank a train of cocktails until we were tipsy enough to be offered by the band to sing Frank Sinatra's 'Fly Me To The Moon' on stage. we went to the movies and watched a FUNNY movie instead of some sappy romantic story that clearly shouldn't be watched on a first date due to the tendency of giving people FUNNY IDEAS. there were no awkward silences and we laughed like deranged kookaburras and then, at two in the morning, he taught me how to drive. which is endearingly sweet, since i suck arse at driving and tend to freakishly magnet my way towards poles and trees and other dangerously standing objects on the streets. i still can't drive, and getting my license still seem as absurd as getting Tom Sturridge to take his clothes off and dirty dance for me, but my date offered and it's the whole idea that counts. thank you. :3

ME: ZOMG, INDONESIAN FOOD. like, DROOL. *lots of faces*
DATE: and hey, you still look lovely!

DATE: why did you pick the table right in front the stage?
ME: because once that dude takes of his t-shirt and throws it into the crowd, we'd have a higher chance of getting it!
DATE: well, this is a lounge and they play jazz, but hey! you still look lovely.

BAND: fly me to the moon~
ME: let me play among the stars~
BAND: *stops music* I HEARD THAT.
ME: ...!!!??
BAND: COME ON STAGE AND SING IT LIKE A MAN.
ME: *alarmed*
DATE: pfft.
ME: *gasp* are you laughing at me?
DATE: but hey, you still look lovely!

ME: *drives car. hotly*
DATE: MIND THAT TREE!
ME: *turns steering wheel* this is so much fun! and oh, how many times are you allowed to turn the steering wheel?
DATE: you've turned enough!
ME: i reckon sixteen's a good number!
DATE: O_O and yet, still very lovely!

O_O

Sun, 09 Apr 2006 10:10:28 GMT

HOLY COW JASON MRAZ IS WEARING A PINK 'OTAKU' T-SHIRT IN HIS 'GEEK IN THE PINK' VIDEO!

OTAKU!!

yo meme's so fat, when she ran away, they had to use all four sides of the milk carton

Sat, 08 Apr 2006 15:40:26 GMT

You can't read me like an open book
I'm more myself that you will ever look

Will no one listen to my little song?

Perhaps I shan't be with you very long

- snippet of "At The Party", W.H Auden

auden my man, you give the most enthralling verses to your people. that passage sent shivers down my spine and almost made me want to cry because it explains so much about what i'm going through right now. T_T

meme from the strikingly wonderful captawb

- list 10 things you want to say to people but you know never will (although i personally would never say never xD)
- don't say who they are
- ~~disable comments~~ (ack, no fun)
- ~~never discuss it again~~ (ditto the above)

1. look, i know you're embarassed after what happened but you were blind drunk when you said those things. and you know what? it's OKAY. i COMPLETELY understand. so uh, you can stop going ZOMGWTFBBQ and hide behind people and dustbins everytime we bump into each other. xD

2. i'm tired of thinking why we grew apart. i'm tired of trying to grab your hand back. maybe now's the time i step away from you. thank you for the brief friendship. only one full semester in all the same classes, filled with what's probably the only genuine laughs we had. thank you very much, but goodbye.

3. okay. so i know you like me, since you're being pretty blantant about everything and all your fickle friends have blabbed how you've been watching me for a year now ("ET TU BRUTE Y'ALL?") but hey - i told you, right? i'm no commitment person. sure, i dream about it, i have flings while dreaming about it but i've been living without it and i know it's not good enough. you're painstakingly sweet and i do think i like you... but... i really don't know if i like you enough. or even if i want a relationship at this stage in life. or even if you deserve me. or i deserve you. slap me if i ever get this sappy again!

4. oi, lay off my friends! stay away and don't even try touching them with a ten foot pole. i don't bloody care if they're potheads, they're far above you. squeal on them, and i will kill you and never return your body to sorrowing relatives! >:O

5. how dare you do that to my best mate? bastard! ooh, if i were there i'd twist your neck like twine and shove your head up a mule's arse.

6. rawr, baby, rawr. shimmy to me now. darling, you're a light switch because you turn me on. xD

7. in the name of the everlasting lord! stop ranting how your right cheek is puffier than your left. once or twice is okay, but every single day? O_O lady, you will be the death of me. i will roll in my grave shrieking 'not the puffy cheek!' until doomsday.

8. ah, promises. right. like you ever keep them. everytime you say something, what happens is the absolute contrary. i don't know when to believe you. sure, you're still my buddy but we're never gonna be close if you keep doing that.

9. YOU MEAN THAT'S NOT REAL HAIR!?!? *shock* AND YOU USED TO BE A WOMAN?!?!? *shock*shock*

10. uh, i'm not that into fashion, but i do know that you don't wear yellow polka dot with black and red stripes. unless it's the current trend in MADAGASCAR, a place that i have never set foot upon it might even be imaginary!? O_O

EGG PORN!

Fri, 07 Apr 2006 04:37:31 GMT

although this msn doodle convo with e1njuwannakno, bullykilla, eggy and mira happened a few weeks ago, i'm sure it hasn't lost it's Mysterious Allure To Scar Young Minds All Over The World.

SERIOUSLY HIGH QUALITY PORN, BUT WITH EGGS:
part 1, part 2, part 3, and part 4.

and if you feel as though your brain is being poked with sticks, it means that your brain is already abusing itself.

(edited to add: don't worry if it says 'site currently unavailable' - it's only temporary)

aside from that: peppy burpday oceanizer! i'm sorry you had to see egg porn on your birthday. so how about that BBQ beach party, eh? :D

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 09:36:32 GMT

I AM SO HAPPY.

i am hugging my FINISHED DOCU PROPOSAL tightly to my bosom and making incoherent wailing noises! *chokes on glee*

right. now you all think i'm crazy. but this assignment has been long overdue! i have changed topics too many times, and finally i've found a topic that i could lovingly nurture as my baby. so you see, it's only natural that i feel all motherly and whisper "push! push!" as the paper comes out of the printer.

on another note, i've finally got my hands on GREEN STREET HOOLIGANS, a DVD which i shamelessly stole from a friend because i was unamused of being at the very bottom of the waiting list. (you have pushed me over the edge, anto! i am desperate and see no other choice!)

let me say that GSH is a phenomenally fantastic film about british football hooliganism with exquisite cinematography that starred elijah wood, whom i consider as a casting mistake because it made me scream "ZOMG BBQ HE PUNCHED THE HOBBIT" in the very first fight scene. i fell in love with charlie hunnam who played pete dunham and his gorgeous-but-not-very-understandable cockney accent, and the plot touched me so deeply that by the end of the movie i was singing "i'm forever blowing bubbles, pretty bubbles in the air!" with bitter tears in my eyes. if only things were different... then it'd be BOVER x PETE ALL THE WAY! *fangirls* theirloveissotrue.

PETE: check out my new bitch boy!
MATT: howdy doodle doo.
THE HOMIES: crikey, you got yourself a yank!
PETE: *gives matt a loving slap on the back*
MATT: that feels good. i think i shall do the same to him so he'll feel my love--
BOVER: OI, NO OUTSIDER TOUCHES MY GUY.
PETE: don't worry, bover. matt might be my bitch boy, but you're still my man. *embraces*

BOVER: hold my hand, baby, please. *sobs*
PETE: NAY. YOU HAVE DEFOULED MY TRUST.
BOVER: so? *sobs* can we just huggle and make up?
PETE: nah, i have a headache. FOREVER.

BOVER: *crushes manhood of unsuspecting enemy who seemed to be either punching pete to the ground or manhandling him*
PETE: m-mate, you're back!
BOVER: i'm sorry for what i did! can we huggle now?
PETE: t-too late-- *chokes on dying words*
BOVER: NOOOOOOO..!!!! *hugs pete's limp body* HUGGLE ME BAAAACK!!

my weekend of a speeding blur.

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 06:24:24 GMT

i really should be born irish. maybe my parents were friends with the irish and when i was born, they gave me a tiny baby bottle of vodka.

saturday's home session was an immediate success! partly because half of the people there were a mass of drunken embarassment. i too, drank absolutely everything. eight full glasses, pure, and then i was upside down in the toilet. >_> but hey, that's exactly how crazy home sessions are supposed to be! and erh, something happened (which i won't elaborate for sanity's sake) that made mouse_chan lovingly call me a slut. XD

convos to describe my weekend:

ME: this sentence came fully formed in my dream last night: "my soul is an inexcusable force fed upon ye." reckon that might be a message from someone i know? like, satan?
MOUSEY: nay, i think that was the bong talking.

ERNEST: how do you feel?
ME: *eyeing the bottles. hotly.* dehydrated.

REAS: where do you think you'll be once you're dead? heaven or hell?
ME: heaven. but in my mind's eye, heaven is a hill and i'd be living at the absolutely bottom of the hill.
TOPAN: i'd probably live under the hill. you know, so i can dig down to hell and peek... and, uh, trade.

ME: who's inside the toilet? make way! i think i shall puke!
TOPAN: me first!
EELA: no, me!
ALAN: that's it, next week i'm putting a revolving door in front of the goddamn water closet.
TOILET: *flush flush flush* whee~!

home session tonight at 69.

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 05:07:14 GMT

oh, i have been at the wait for so, so long. THANK YOU ALAN, ERNEST, ANTO, OSCAR.

what will happen? what will happen? what do you think will happen to meethz?

Tonight Meethz Will:

A. drink so much, everyone'll think she's actually irish before lapsing into an alcoholic coma.
B. get proposed to on the balcony. ("meethz! meethz! where art thou!")
C. get eaten by sewer alligators on the way back.
D. get abducted by aliens who'd release her straight away after one look at her unruly hair ("clearly an inferior race!" they'd say).
E. all of the above!

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 05:51:38 GMT

this morning i burned a CD for myself, just for kicks.

MEETHZ: *turns to stack of empty CDs, cackling* who shall i pick now, my pretties...
EMPTY CD 1: him! take him, he's fat, round and bears ugly designs!
EMPTY CD 2: no! p-please, spare me! I'll do anything you say, j-just not the CD burner!
MEETHZ: quiet, object. music heals the soul!
EMPTY CD 2: NOOOOOO!!
MEETHZ: *evil laugh* burn, baby, BURN!

a few minutes was all it took for the empty CD to metamorph into a playlist full of glory~

01. Everything Is Alright - Motion City Soundtrack
02. Follow Me - OST BECK
03. Face - OST BECK
04. City Of The Damned - Green Day
05. Superman - Goldfinger
06. What If God Smoked Cannabis? - Joan Osbourne
07. We Are All On Drugs - Weezer
08. The Last High - The Dandy Warhols
09. Not If You Were The Last Junkie On Earth - The Dandy Warhols
10. Smoke Two Joints - Sublime
11. But It's Better If You Do - Panic! At The Disco
12. Funny Little Frog - Belle & Sebastian
13. When The Sun Goes Down - Arctic Monkeys
14. Always - Blink 182
15. How To Be Dead - Snow Patrol
16. The Jetset Life Is Gonna Kill - My Chemical Romance
17. Let There Be Love - Oasis
18. El Salvador - Athlete
19. Hoppipolla - Sigur Ros

ah. isn't it wonderful? <3 <3 very few of my songs are mainstream, and that's simply because i like to be lame! what boggles my mind is that track 06-10 all happen to imply drug usage. i swear i didn't do it on purpose. O_O

anyhoo. ian, my brother, is coming down to my little studious town this april. he'll be taking a diploma in sound & music engineering in the same college as mine (which just screams yayness :3) and the minute his ass gets here i'm going to make him play this CD in the car every fucking day until our ears refuse to listen to any other song as long as we're alive!

MEETHZ: okay, sigur ros. i shall end you now and listen to the overly commercialised hitz fm instead!
EARS: that's what you think, bitch.
HITZ FM: i'm so hawt. i only play, like, popular songs! up your ziggy, uncommercialised bands!
MEETHZ: *gasp* are my ears defying me, or did hitz fm just said something dirty on air?
EARS: mhehe.

impending academic failure!

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 05:30:12 GMT

i have one more assignment to go. it's almost one thirty and i don't think i can finish everything before five. this should've been handed in last week. i am losing points within each passing minute. i should damn my procrastinating habit to the fathoms of HELL.

OMG OMG TEH PRESSURE.

you see, i'm trying to write this docu proposal about Music VS Culture, but then i wrote about eggs. i know it's not very musical, eggs. unless you count that horrible singers get booed offstage through a rain of rotten eggs. the egg porn convo i had last monday apparently left me SCARRED FOR LIFE. damn you, crazy funny people!

and why the hell am i still writing here? i still have three more pages of my stupid docu proposal to write! i have wasted seven minutes of borrowed time! EGAD! tempt me not with your siren song, LJ! i will smite you for this disrespect! SMITE! SMITE! SMITE!

[EDIT]

MEETHZ: half a page done, baby!
CLOCK: it is now 3.45 PM.

i keep on deleting the paragraphs i don't like. damn my perfectionism! that's it, i give up. i'll hand it in tomorrow. >.>

the apocalypse is near~~

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 04:10:25 GMT

i hate it when guys hit on me in the computer lab. geez, let a girl do her work for god's sake. i'm snappy, don't talk to me now! wander your beady little eyes elsewhere. just because i'm wearing an offshoulder doesn't mean i have ultra boobs. that girl over there shows a fantastic cleavage, kindly hit on her!

the only silver lining to this is i manage to finish my assignments a lot more quicker when probable deranged stalkers are eyeing me.

meh, this assigment's fiction so i guess i can put it here! ^_^

OOO

Love makes the world go round.

But what if the world finally gets around to ending this Tuesday afternoon, like a long death rattle that’s agonizingly slow? That’s all there is on the news nowadays, each channel boasting about freak climatological patterns, airborne toxic events, God, and then nothing at all. It’s been happening for days and days now. I can feel the pressure as the sky looms over my loved one and I, and there’s nothing we can do.

I haven’t slept once since it began. I can hear it even in the quietest part of the night, while my lover lies beside me and the horizon burns magenta. Once in a while I’d sit up and ask him what’s happening outside. He’d glance out the window and pause, making sure every horrible detail sinks in. Sometimes he’d see the sky on fire. Sometimes he’d see our neighbours on fire. Sometimes there’d be a new body hanging in the treetops. Lately everything’s wiped out completely that there were no trees to hang the bodies. Sometimes the dying would rap on the window and ask for help, and then he’d quickly draw the blinds shut. He’d cry silently and I’d cry with him, knowing that he respects me by being as painfully honest as he could.

Of course, it would be easy for him to lie a beautiful lie. It’d be as simple as a twist of the tongue and I’d possess the false comfort that everything would be okay – he’s my man after all, it’s his job to make me feel safe and secure.

I remember a time when he’d look out that window and say ‘Nothings’s beautiful enough for you to know’, and instead he’d tell me a wonderful story of two people who kissed forever and made love until the end of the world.

Then the story stopped being wonderful when he decided to forget about it and told the truth.

I don’t blame him, really, not at all. Everything was becoming too much of a living nightmare for him to uphold the burden on his shoulders and remain cheerfully sane. The truth was that our front yard has become a mass of unmarked graves. I was furious when I found out, so I slapped him for being a lying bastard, and hit him, and kicked him. He broke down crying in front of me and claimed that he was tired of lying and making me live in a fantasy book. He apologized and told me he loved me, but he was tired and has had enough.

When I braved myself to look out the window for the first time, I screamed, just that once.

I really couldn’t blame him.

It’s Tuesday afternoon and the apocalypse has begun. The world halts beneath our feet and turns in the wrong direction. The sky crimsons into dusk despite dawn being a few hours before. The year is suddenly 1861. It’s 1986 and I was born. It’s 1492. It’s 2007 and we fell in love. Millions of others felt love as passionate and explosive as ours, but that didn’t stop the world from fading. In the end, love couldn’t make the world go round after all.

I ask him to look out the window again, but this time I join him.

The sky is a hundred times lower than the last time I saw it. There is no clouds. I feel something pressing on me from all sides, like reality trying to compress itself.

He asks me if I’m ready – I am. Our fingers interlace together. We share our last, chaste kiss. We hold our breath. We count. We wait.

The world is dying.

Dying, dying.

Dead

peppy burpday, mamma! :D

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 17:09:41 GMT

this worries me. because the older she gets, the flashier clothes she wears in public. >_>

MUM: look at me! *dazzles the room with her entire gang of bling blings*
DAD: OH NOES MY EYES.
MEETHZ: *facepalms*

and on an entirely different subject, is it just me or does oasis really have the coolest concert posters in the world?

lovely... *sparkly eyes*

ode to silly questionnaires.

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 09:22:01 GMT

snatched this from captawb.

ask me a question about each of the following!

1. friends
2. sex
3. music
4. drugs
5. love
6. liveJournal
7. other (open ended)

behold, a demonstration:

1. would you sell your friends?
- of course not! i buy them in the black market for 99.95!

2. full body contact and heavy petting is the cure for--?
- --influenza!

3. i are a museecal geenius!
- *gasp* mozart!?

4. want some weed?
- *thinks mozart wouldn't offer me weed* not right now, thanks, i'm high on One Piece love!

5. i'm sorry, baby, i can't accept your heart.
- YOU HAVE ALREADY EATEN BITS OF IT.

6. you have very little lj friends.
- *agog* and who are you, by the way?

7. i am KOOKY. KOOKY, do you hear me?
- ... and on with the show!

buggy the clown must love this. or hate this.

Sat, 18 Mar 2006 12:47:50 GMT

this big red button has to be the best thing on the internet since porn spams.

i dare you try it TILL THE VERY END.

nbhtfsdf! (loosely translated into 'omgwtf!')

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 08:51:59 GMT

one week into college and assignments have already paralyzed my brains. i swear, they're *everywhere*, little twittering maggots screaming death threats for academic failures. this week i'll need to compile a research database for my documentary script, and i haven't even found a theme.

although, possible themes i have are:

1. anime (like, of course! it's so like, obvious! duh!)
2. indie music (because uh, raw music tamed the beast, or something)
3. smoking (FEEL THE IRONY *lights ciggy*)

amount of research done: NYET.

due date: THIS FRIDAY.

should i be panicking? i think yes.

MEETHZ'S BRAIN: .. and it is FIVE seconds to self-destruction ...
MEETHZ: again!?

pH34R mY p03ms of d00m!!

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 13:12:49 GMT

----

Dearest, You Fool Nobody

Dearest, you fool nobody

You veil your scar beneath the material of your shirt

But your flesh protrudes as I scavenge your skin

You cover your frown by biting your lip

But it hurts that it bleeds that it pierces your mouth

You hide your tears with a quick shut of your lids

But – oh, what is that?

I fool you; and you open your eyes

Dearest, see

Let me show you what I can do

I am a magician, a dancer, the ghost of woman in lust

I can conjure your happiness out of nothingness

Walk beside you in your fellowship of sorrow

Scatter with you in pieces as a part of one beautiful puzzle

So let me

Be your peace

Be your love

Be mine and only

My yearn is You

Your kiss is Me

Our love is as soft as the softly idiots We

Dearest, do you see?

Do not try

You cannot fool me

----

Sex

I saw the sky on fire
I felt ten burning notes sear my skin
I have died in beautiful despair
But out of blood and tears, you made me
So I will never leave you

----

Death

It is a curious sensation
That he kisses you with his sickness
A heart is surely broken
In tow with a cry of forgiveness
You feel your skin jump and tingle
As his breath draws terribly near
And upon his arrival
He whispers in your ear:

Morituri te salutant

We all die someday

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x-posted in this AP forum thread.

happy birthday mousey!!

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 12:03:20 GMT

my dearest mouse_chan turned 20 yesterday!

i love you girl! hope you got my birthday message! and if you didn't, i sent you an email earlier today. with rants. XD

get online bitch! i need you. pwease? *begs*

how to gloriously fool yourself

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 11:55:43 GMT

you know what's the best thing to do when you feel like shit?

laugh at yourself.

look in the mirror and see how clownish you look at the moment.

look in the mirror, months and months after today, because you will be looking so much prettier and so much better than you look right now.

you might be in love, you might be feeling happier than ever.

you parents might've made their first million, they might've bought you a car.

you might've had a new haircut, rebonded that frizzy hair of yours and gotten it bleached, in electric blue.

you might've gotten new friends, new mates, new people to trust and hang out and laugh with.

you might've played the funniest prank ever, and gotten away with it.

you might've gotten drunk at the greatest party and found your soulmate in the most craziest way imagined.

you might've won the lottery.

you might've gone to spain.

you might be making a list of the CDs you want to buy and be able to afford it.

you might be seeing oasis live, waiting to meet the gallagher brothers backstage.

you might be listening to christmas songs in june.

you might be struggling to put that awesome one piece poster of yours on the wall.

you might be playing your favourite songs on your brand new fender telecaster.

you might have gotten yourself an ipod.

if that fails, this cocktail of drugs will surely cheer you up.